Monday, August 16, 2010

Lopsided

I was able to get one of the drains out today, but only the right side. I feel very lopsided with one still in! What happens overnight tonight will determine if the left side can be removed tomorrow or if I have to wait until Wednesday. Tomorrow would be nice....taking a shower sure sounds good!

Yesterday was not one of my better days. I got very upset during the night and my negative attitude continued throughout the day. I am into lists, so here is a list of some of the things that made me angry:

1) Cancer - I HATE it
2) How I look - people no longer stare at my head, they stare at my chest
3) How I feel - sore and tired
4) The left drain was leaking and that was gross
5) I don't have a desire to be in big social settings - I'm good with a visit from a friend or two, but many more than that gets overwhelming
6) I haven't been a normal female since December

I was able to get some sleep last night and today has been a little bit better. Yesterday I cried quite a bit. No tears today. Yesterday I hung up on my mom. Today I finished all of my phone conversations pleasantly. Hopefully tomorrow I will be able to get the other drain out and continue to gain strength and energy. The weather does help, doesn't it! What a beautiful day!

4 comments:

  1. Hi Robin,
    Sounds like a rough day yesterday. I am glad today was a bit better and that you ended your post with a positive note about the sun. Isn't great how the beautiful weather can cheer us up even if we're feeling down? Just remember, there are lots of people thinking about and praying for you each day. If you have a "down" day, let us know and we'll be in prayer extra that day for you! Take care!
    Love, Krystle

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  2. Dear Robin,

    You do realize you are entitled to down days, don't you! I'm thinking you may have had a rough day or two before all of this started... :) Anyway, I'm sorry yesterday was rough, but I know you are too tough to stay down and you will continue to pick yourself up!! I'll be sure to be specific in my prayers for you. If you feel the need to take out your frustrations, feel free to give me a call and then hang up on me!! I won't be offended. :) I know tomorrow will be a better day because God Loves You!!!!

    Love,
    Corla :)

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  3. Hi Robin,
    I just said a prayer for you and I hope today is a good day for you.

    Jill Jipping

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  4. Hi Robin,

    Praying for you and your family. Just remember you ARE on the journey to a complete recovery!!!!!!! YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    Love,
    Lynn

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